Yesterday I drunk the following;
2 x Lemon, Honey and Apple cider vinegar
1 x Trade aid green tea
7 x 750 mL bottles of water
4 x Speights bottles


Today I've only have one l,h+acv and 2 bottles of water, but its early days yet.

I'm sick and its horrible.
I went away and got motivated to do the following things;
1. Get licence
2. Apply for new job
3. Join Marlborough Clubs

Going well punk.

Study? Hmm that isn't going too well. I know I need to do it, and I want to do it, but I just don't ever seem to get anywhere %^%^$%$# I guess I'll just mission on and hope to get somewhere.

I went to a party last night, which was like the 1st thing I've really been excited to go to in so long, it was nice, I had fun - which was weird. I kinda hope I get invited to more parties by that group, there is just something nice about being around people that aren't emo all the time, like they're actual teenagers, unlike this strange way of  living I lead. It was nice to be carefree, laughing, just whatever.

Yum I should be going to get some kai soon! My BMTH shirt arrived and it fits like a dream, which is ace as.

Today after school I went to a friends and we ordered some bring me the horizon shirts, I felt like a bit of a dick for it, but mine has a dingo on it, so I get to run around screaming "dirty dingo" once I get it.  The new BMTH video is actually pretty cool, it seems to be very symbolic, reading too much into it!

My deputy principle called me a butch dyke.
I'm actually hoping this will just blow over, I don't like to blow things up.

I stole the Vanna cd off a friend.

Boys who don't talk to me, but mean the world are apparently coming to visit. So that spells motels, cigars, bmth and whiskey, which is good, but it also means I'll get my hopes up again, just for them to be killed by their winter chill. I think I'll give up on them one day - at least they are my every breath anymore. Which is something I hope!

My bestfriend is on the same island as me (: I can't wait for her to come visit in January. Summer means the beach, hardly any clothes, funny sunburn lines, headscarves and escape the fate in the car. Can hardly wait. should be good times (:

Over school, and the fucking net, can hardly wait for the holidays, and if the boys come down.
sometimes friends appear from the most unexpected places.

I need to get some books out, some good pre 1990's fictions, where the story is well developed and involved, I might read Jane Eyre, seeing I own it.  Can't wait for my silverstein album to arrive.

I can't believe the drama that I'm in, the flood is getting closer . But I don't think they know that I know how to swim.

I went the the doctors today. First I had to wait in the waiting room, which made me nervous. Then I had some new nurse lady, she was really funny, I had to have blood tests, and she was like "You have such nice veins, I'm spoiled for choice."
Then we were talking about me being a vegetarian, and she was like "have you lost weight, you don't look obese."

It's made me decide to become a blood donor, I think its a pretty cool sensation, getting blood taken. I wouldn't want leeches on me though. I don't wanna be iron defiant, then I might gain weight and get fat.

I went to school for two periods, and found out I'd lost internet access for looking up godsgirls and going on myspace. It kinda sucks, because that was the only time I really went on the internet, and I actually have work to do on the internet at school at the moment. Lame, so I have to go on at home, I only went to school to eat my lunch and check my myspace ;D I managed to hack into someone's account, and listen to the new ETF song, again.

I went and tried out these new self serve checkouts, you even get to put your money into the machine and it spits out your change, it was pointless, but fun. My small town is expanding, our wharehouse now has a pharmacy! Ha. My friend who works there gave me free posters, so I was like sweet, Katy Perry and Motley for my wall. (even though they just fell down straight away and I don't really like posters on my wall.)

You can change your mind, but you can't change your heart. I got the HH album, I felt like a real geek.

It won't stop raining, and good weather was all my town was good for. So I wrote a poem. All this false hope because its spring now.

:)

It flooded again today.
It doesn't flood for years, and then wow, two floods in a month. It consumed trees and bridges.

I walked home from my English mock in the rain, it was nice to be honest.  While walking, I decided to make fudge when I got home. I'd forgotten that its just an excuse to eat 2 whole cups of sugar. I ate it half set, and watched a video.

I went down to a new video store on Saturday, they were wearing denim jackets as part of their uniform, and I decided I want a job there, any way I saw they had video's. Which is fucking happening, cos all the good movies never got put onto dvd!

Stoked as.

I ended up wanting to vomit.
flipping sugar, cocoa, milk and 25 grams of butter.

I'm probably gonna fail my mocks.

People annoy me, so does false hope.

I've already forgotten what happened at my ball. The highlight was making a moustash out of foamy soap, and laughing at the girls rushing to the bathrooms after dinner.

Afterwards I just watched American Beauty, I'd forgotten how it is one of the best movies ever made.

My most memorable moment of the weekend was the point where I found out that the singer peaches is 41 and Canadian. I thought she'd be early 30's max, and that she was British. I took her poster down, because it's just not the same anymore. Not that I judge musicians on who they are as people, just its a little unnerving and weird hearing a 41 year old talk about how she likes having guys going down on her. Like sure she's allowed a sex drive, but its like Madonna - I don't wanna fucking know about it.
And to think I was gonna go see her in concert!

I was stoked 'cos my alexisonfire cd arrived (:

My friend gave up his hairdressing apprenticeship, so he's working full time, and can come stay sooner. Which is good, but not.

My other friend and I are becoming starwars freaks, I hope there's one on next Saturday. But 5 Sundays of movies like superman and spiderman, super keen.

This girl I know did acid last night for the first time, I'm over people with their fucking drugs, thinking that it makes them cool, and different. She tried to come over to my house, luckily I wasn't home. Not looking forward to her trying to talk to me about it, and her acting all drugged and cool. I think its just fucking pathetic.

I only like drinking and stuff with certain people, at certain times.

The boy she did it with, is a complete fucking loser.

People.

The crowd glistens with anticipation. Hooked on their deity's next words. The man on the stage is covering up that he's going slightly grey. He has a $1600 smile, and a $200 tan. He pauses for a moment. Everyone already knows what his next words will be.
"Well, Miss Elanor..." His pauses are for dramatic effect, to hype the crowd.
"-if you could have, one wish, what would it be?"

His companion on the stage, Miss Elanor, is a 19 year old Beauty Queen. She has spent the last 19 years of her life preparing for this moment. She does yoga daily, eats only one meal a day, she's practiced her walk, her smile, her 'oh so surprised' face when she wins, a million times. She was voted Home-coming queen, Miss Ohio, and now she's aiming to be crowned, 'Miss United States of America.'

She pretends to think for a moment. She says, without removing the smile from her face,
"I'd wish for a World War."

The crowd claps enthusiastically. The man claps himself, smiles through his teeth.
"Good answer, Miss, Elanor."

World peace had gotten boring. Like a dry plain, the Earth is pleading for a rainstorm, in the form of war. Countries are overcrowded. Modern medicines have saved the sick, the crippled, the lame. Death is something that happens to a friend of a friends friend. Overcrowding means people are packed into apartment complexes like fish into a can. These apartments line street after street, filled with people existing because they don't know any other way.

Disputes are brushed under the carpet. Sins are not punished, rather countries open their arms to embrace the sinner which has seemingly repented its ways.

Natural resources have been used up, as Governments scramble to find a way to fuel the masses. Everything is pushed to the limit.

Factories however produce surplus goods, part of a workers initiative to give people jobs. Cars, Televisions, made, pushed out of the factory only to be destroyed again.

Generations of men losing their natural instinct. The gender line blurring, as men no longer have an instinct to hunt, kill, provide and survive.

However, Nations are starting to drop hints of war. An easy, natural solution. To rid the world of overcrowding, to reinstate the animal like instincts of blood lust back in men. To make people feel alive by experiencing death.

Buildings will be destroyed.
Flowers will grow in soldiers blood.
People will have a purpose.
National pride will be re-found.

However after so long, people don't know how to fight. Nations will push, but it is up to another to retaliate. To step up to the challenge. To nuke a city, rid planet of a few million people.

To move forward we must destroy improvement.